work

Wow, when you try to blog everyday, you sure realize how boring your life really is, thanks for that eye opener Tif. lol :)

Been very anxious lately. I think it's work related. Don't get me wrong, I love my new job, but I'm in an awkward stage right now. My job is an independent position. I am the only mortgage specialist for BMO in Brandon, therefore, job shadowing isn't an option. I have taken my courses, I have done many conference calls, I've talked to my coach (the person who helps me with anything I don't know) and now I'm done with "training" but I still have SO much I don't know. I have so much support and can ask questions to a lot of people but one of the other new MS's put into perfect words, "I don't know what I don't know", therefore, I have no questions to ask.

I would love to go out and get some business as I only have 4 more months of (crappy) base pay, then I'm on full commission. Scary! If I don't have business, I don't have a paycheck! You can now see why I'd be anxious. I am excited to go out and meet people and I know I have help to put the loans together and make sure it's done right but when I'm with a customer, I have to have some answers or why would they want to deal with me? It's all about credibility. I have to give a good impression so these people will pass my name onto their friends, that's the who idea. I need to develop a referal system where I don't have to put in so much effort, where they come to me. I have no doubt that I will do a good job for anyone but some people have patience for new people and some do not. I don't want to get a bad name by approaching people to soon. If I don't know enough or at least a little about what they want to know, I'm not going to look good, whether I'm new or not.

This is my dilemma. Do I make an attempt to go out and network when I clearly won't be able to answer the questions my customers or realtors will have, or so I continue to sit at my desk and read until I absorb all the info I see and continue to search out other things I don't know that I don't know?

I am really going to love everything about this job, just struggling a bit to get started. I knew that would be the case, but reality is a tough pill to swallow sometimes. Hopefully I can find some friends/family that will recommend me so I can get a few things on the go.